It's a part of the process I know, but I don't like the immense anger I feel tonight. I am so angry at this situation that I cannot change. I am so angry to be so powerless. Thankfully, for the most part I have been able to distract myself, but I feel it hovering behind every task I accomplish tonight. I have been doing laundry like crazy, and I realize it's because it's my "cleaning" stress relief. I have a clean house thanks to the maids--for whom I am so grateful and appreciative that our new financial situation from the impending deployment affords us--so I have found a new outlet: laundry. This is good because I hate laundry normally.
I guess that's the silver lining. In my anger, I have accomplished much laundry.
XOXO,
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