3 Day rule

Whenever there are big changes in my life, it typically takes me 3 days of mourning for the old life before I start to feel better.  Brady left Saturday, day 1, and while I was distracted most of the day, when I drove home late in the evening, the tears began.  Then on Sunday, day 2, I cried pretty much all day and evening.  Yesterday, day 3, I cried before work and after work.  Today, I woke up a little sad, but did not feel the urge to cry.  I have had a great day for the most part (despite my students who have completely checked out and who are fighting tooth and nail to not have to do anymore work this year).  Tonight, I didn't even get overwhelmed with all the things that had/have to get done.  For example, I had to unload the dishwasher so that the maids would be able to load it when they come tomorrow.  Speaking of the maids, I had to do my part to put the house back together so the maids can thoroughly clean--the downstairs is ready to go, though I will tackle the upstairs as soon as I'm done with this post.  Not to mention the baths that I put on my calendar so I wouldn't forget to keep my children clean (in my defense, bath time has been a Daddy thing since day 1).  I also remembered to feed the dogs (that caused tears on Sunday when I forgot to feed them until like 10am) and hopefully will find time to do workout 99 tonight.

I'm tearing up right now, not because I'm sad but because I'm relieved to feel more at peace and to want to be an active participant in my life.  I have been praying--or rather, BEGGING for peace--and while our situation is not ideal, I am again able to focus on the amazing blessings around me.  I cannot tell you how much it has meant to me to receive words of encouragement from so many people the last few days (and weeks).  It really has helped me get through the beginning which to me is always the hardest part.

Now off to clean up the upstairs, which wouldn't be so bad except that I decided to rearrange the entire master bedroom last night (you may call this my new stress outlet seeing as how I don't have to clean anymore), making it necessary to go through tons of books and random things.

XOXO,